Finding Balance: Holding on and Letting go

Finding the balance in Motherhood between holding on and letting go

Hello Beautiful People!

Recently, we have had a couple big moments that make my Mama heart ache a bit and at the same time burst with overwhelming love and pride. It seems that gradually over the last few months and then all of a sudden, Little Miss almost 4, became a big kid who doesn’t always need her Mama. I’m finding right now that motherhood is all about finding a balance between the holding on and the letting go.

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Earlier last week, we went with Lilly to her very first soccer game! She belongs to a team of boys and girls her age with a coach to teach and guide them as they learn to play. Hubby and I got to witness her interact with kids she’s never met before and take instruction from her coach. Up until very recently, this little girl was attached to my hip whenever we were in new situations with new people, so it is awesome to see her blossom on her own. We watched her beam with pride when her coach gave her a high five for kicking the ball properly and listen to her chat excitedly with her team mates. She would run over to us once in a while, but only to ask if we saw her big kick or her fast running. Watching her, just made me realize that she is growing up and she is becoming her own little person and maybe she does have more of her dad’s outgoing personality and a little less of my introverted personality than we previously thought.

With the weather finally being nice, we have been outside most of the day. This is the first time that Lilly has wanted to go play at the neighbours without me. In fact, the other day, she even told me she didn’t want me to come. *sad face I sit in our yard, keeping a close eye, but still allowing her the independence she is craving. I’m happy, of course, that she is becoming a big kid, who is happy to play with others, but at the same time, I’m wondering where my baby has gone. It’s a hard balance to keep, for most mother’s I think. We want our babies to become well socialized, independent members of society but we miss the sweet faced, chubby babies who always need their Mama the most.

The biggest thing that we experienced was registering for school and visiting her future classroom. This one is tough. We weren’t sure if we were going to do school this year or at all-we have considered home-schooling. In the end, after many discussions and talking to Lilly about it all, she is excited and wants to go to school. I, of course, want to keep her home with me forever and ever. I have been blessed to be able to stay home with my girls, so we obviously spend a lot of time together, just us. We have our rhythm and slow paced lifestyle that we have really cherished. School is going to change things. I know that we will settle into a new rhythm and everything will be just fine, and that I’m the one who probably needs to accept this change more than anyone. I don’t get to sit and watch from the yard next door, or cheer her on from the sidelines. She will be all on her own, and that thought alone makes me lose my breath a little.

Finding balance in Motherhood between holding on and letting go
My quickly growing baby over the last 4 years!

So, for now, I am holding on as much as I can. We are taking this summer very seriously in terms of playing, having fun, lots of family time, adventures, learning, laughing, loving, cuddling, telling stories, listening…..and allowing room for freedom, independence, change and growth. We are working hard on finding that balance. I may develop a few more grey hairs during this process but I can only imagine that a few will turn into many over the years, as my girls continue to grow into independent young ladies.

Do you find it hard to maintain this balance? What have you found has helped ease your Mama heart?

Talk soon,

Tina

Grain-Free Strawberry Shortcake Crepes

Strawberry Shortcake Crepes

Hello Hello,

How has everyone’s week been? Did you all celebrate Mother’s Day on the weekend? How has the weather been where you are? Our week started out nice and hot and sunny and tomorrow we are expecting snow. Snow. In May. No thank you. We celebrated Mother’s Day on Sunday with just our little family and we ended up having a late Mother’s Day brunch with my mom yesterday. It was so lovely. We had tea, fruit, and the most-delicious grain-free crepes topped with coconut whip and fresh strawberries. So. Good. So good that I am sharing with you!

We love pancakes around here and  have them pretty much every weekend. The nice thing about these crepes is that they are really quick to whip up and so any day can be a little pancake celebration. These pancakes use a mix of coconut flour and arrowroot flour so they are very similar to traditional crepes but they are also full of protein and fibre. They are filling but don’t make you feel heavy the way traditional wheat and dairy filled ones do. We love ’em and I hope you do too!

 

Grain-Free Crepes

Makes 10-12 pancakes (I made a double batch but I gave directions for a single batch)

4 eggs

1/4 cup coconut flour

1/4 cup arrowroot flour

2 tsp Vanilla extract

pinch of Himalayan salt

1 tsp cinnamon

1 cup milk of choice

1 tbs melted coconut oil/butter/ghee

Grain free crepes

Crack eggs into mixing bowl and whisk until well beaten.

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Add melted coconut oil/butter/ghee and vanilla and mix well.

Sift in flours, cinnamon and salt and mix until smooth.

Add in milk of choice and mix well.

Grain free crepes

Heat up skillet (I use a 10 inch pan) with a little coconut oil or butter until very hot.

Grain free crepes

Pour 1/4 cup of batter into pan and swirl around until it spreads into the size of the pan.

Cook about 1 minute on the first side, then flip and cook another 30 seconds on the second side.

Grain free crepes

Top with coconut whip and fresh strawberries or butter and maple syrup or chocolate sauce and bananas or thawed frozen berries or apples and cinnamon…..you get it. They’re delicious with all the things!

Grain-Free crepes

Coconut Whip

1 can full fat coconut milk put in fridge over night

2 tbs maple syrup

1 tsp vanilla extract

 

Coconut whip cream

 

Open coconut milk can upside down and drain off the liquid. (Save it for smoothies!)

Add the rest of your ingredients and whip with a whisk until smooth and fluffy. Keep in the fridge until ready to serve.

Enjoy!!

Is your family pancakes fans? Do you make them regularly? If you try these, let me know how you like them!

 

 

This Motherhood gig…

What Motherhood really means

Hey Mama,

With Mother’s Day fast approaching, I have been thinking a lot about what it actually means to be a mother. It’s kind of crazy when you really think about it. I grew this tiny human inside my own body and pushed her out to see that she is this perfect mix of me and her dad. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and the only thing that I remember from that day is how much love swelled up inside me as soon as I saw her. It was the best day ever. Then, it happened all over again almost 3 years later. Motherhood is the best and hardest thing I’ve ever done.

As a young girl, I always dreamed of having my own babies and being a mommy. I knew this is what I was meant to be. But, you really have no idea what it really means to be somebody’s mother until you actually are.

Being a mother (most of this applies to fathers too but because it’s Mother’s Day, I’m just focussing on the moms) means…..

you will always be tired. And not just, I only got 6 hours of sleep last night and worked all day tired, but, like I’ve only gotten 5 hours of sleep every night since 2012, running around all day, carrying a 20 pound baby and pulling a strong-willed toddler, cooking 3 meals a day everyday, and playing make-believe fairies and unicorns non-stop with a smile, tired.

you will be puked on, peed on, pooped on, spit on, licked, bit more times than you can even count.

you will put the almond milk in the cupboard and not realize it until you can’t find it in the fridge.

you will try to unlock the house door with your car’s keyless entry.

you will have to pee so bad but squirm in pain rather than risk waking the baby that finally fell asleep on you.

you will feel, at times, that no one appreciates you.

you will have your pajamas on by 5:30 on Saturday every night.

when you finally have alone time with your spouse after the kids are asleep, you spend the evening talking about the kids and looking at cute pictures of them.

you will never watch the end of a movie ever again.

your kidless friends will slowly stop calling because a) they just don’t understand your new life and b) you turned them down so many times that they just don’t bother any more.

you will often feel like there isn’t a single other person on the planet that understands what you are going through.

you will worry about every little bump or sleep pattern changes and google everything.

you will never have a clean house or know what it feels like to have all the laundry done ever again.

you have no idea what you used to do with all your free time.

BUT, being a mother ALSO means….

being loved unconditionally by the cutest kids in the world.

falling in love with your spouse over and over every time you see him interact with the kids.

laughing so hard you actually pee in your pants on several occasions.

you will learn more about yourself and the world from your children than you ever thought possible.

you will appreciate and need your own mom (and/or mother-in-law) more than ever before.

you will be smothered in love, hugs, cuddles, and sloppy kisses until you have no other option but to feel like the luckiest person in the world.

you will love these tiny humans so much, that you cry just thinking about it.

you will realize the kind of person you are and the kind of person you want to be and do your very best to live that way so that your children have a good role model and someone to look up to.

you can’t even imagine what your crazy life would be like without your children.

The truth about Motherhood
Nursing a newborn and cuddling a sick toddler. Everybody sleeping but me because….I have to pee.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the hard-working, strong, loving, and so very tired Mama’s out there. Much love to you on this special day and every day!

<3 Tina

 

 

 

Monthly Mission: May

Monthly mission for the month of May

Happy May sweet friends!

Welcome to this month’s monthly mission, where we create a new habit and work on it for the month. Last month (April’s mission) we started composting and it is going great! I hope it is for you as well! I love how much less waste we have and simultaneously creating beautiful nutrient rich soil to add to our garden!

Since we recently celebrated Earth Day, this month I want to focus on something that I feel has seriously gotten out of control in our homes, our stores, the landfills. Plastic is everywhere! It’s gross and sad because it never gets broken down and lives forever in our landfills. Plastic bags, plastic bottles, plastic containers, plastic appliances….

So, this month we are focussing on using LESS PLASTIC.

Around Earth Day, I read the saddest article about 2 beached whales that were discovered to have stomachs full of plastic. Disgusting and so irresponsible. We need to do better. The earth, the animals, future generations depend on it. I recently joined a Plastic Free Challenge (you can read more about it and join here) put on by TWIOOS and so this is the perfect challenge for May!

A few things we are doing in our home to help reduce the amount of plastic:

-use reusable bags for your groceries.

-use cloth bags for your produce (I just ordered these and I’m so excited for them to come!)

-instead of buying baggies, use reusable cloth zipper bags like these. Cute, economical and conscientious!

-reuse plastic bags from the bulk section.

-buy nuts, seeds, grains, legumes, dried fruit in bulk to avoid plastic packaging.

-use a water filter and reusable glass or stainless steel water bottle.

-make homemade yogurt, apple sauce, dips, sauces….instead of buying individual plastic portions. At the very least, buy the larger tubs that can be recycled.

-recycle everything that can be recycled! Re-read what is allowed in the recycle bin so you stay up to date.

Monthly mission: less plastic!
Thank you Danielle Laporte!

Of course, we won’t be able to eliminate all plastic but we can certainly be more mindful of our purchases. Let’s do our best and I know we can make a huge impact on this world so that maybe one day plastic will be as taboo as styrofoam.

Will you be joining us on this mission? Do you have any other tips to add to help reduce plastic? Please let us know!

What I Learned in April

What I learned in april

Hello beautiful people!

I just kind of can’t believe that April is over and it is May already! I feel like we spent April waiting for Spring to come back to us and then spending every possible sunny moment outside enjoying it for fear that it would leave again. Thankfully, I do believe it is here to stay this time….

I have decided to link up to Emily‘s blog once again this month to share all the things that I have learned. I find it to be such a great way to reflect and tune into all that we actually learn in the everyday living.

Here are 5 things I learned in the month of April:

  1. I am a much better person when the sun is shining and the weather is warm. I have always been a warm weather kind of person and I obviously still try to live life to the fullest and do everything with a happy heart in the winter time too but, things are just easier in the warmer seasons. Sunshine + no snow = happy Tina.

2. Cancer doesn’t need to be as scary as we are lead to believe. I watched the highly recommended documentary series, The Truth about Cancer, and I learned so much crazy information about the cancer industry and how our bodies can easily prevent and heal cancer if we give it the right tools. Check it out!

3. I cannot be trusted around cashews. I hadn’t bought or eaten cashews in quite a long time and now I remember why. I ended up picking some up during a weak hunger moment at the store last week and I ate. the. whole. thing. So addicting. I’m a firm believer in not depriving and listening to your body as long as you are eating mindfully-but clearly not when it comes to this delicious little nut.

What I learned in April

4. Everything about composting! April’s mission was to start composting and so I obviously had to learn everything I could about it. And let me tell you, there is a lot more to it than just putting food scraps in a bin. But it’s so fun and totally worth it!

5. I can do camel pose! I never really gave this pose a fair shot because it always felt like my back was going to break in half every time I tried. This month, I discovered that my back is now flexible enough to get into this pose without fear of breaking my back. And it feels so good!

So, tell me what you learned this month. I’d love to hear all about it!

Until next time,

Tina

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